@ Julie: ..(yeah twitter should have put a patten on that whole @ sign thing) Sorry about ur spring break..but i mean, at least you got a really huge winter break! spotted skunk? really? Sorry about your commercial too, I totally offered to put a bitch in a locker for you two days ago..but noooo, you like her sometimes..see, shoulda let me do my thing.

@ Morgan: I have way too much work to even catch up and do it stress freely lol

@ Joe: You have to roadtrip to Ohio! Cuz thats where we are all at! Im totally down with ur 2/3 beers to end a week, my problem is Id end the week with a 5th of something x_x and spend all weekend feeling like shit lol

@...haha, Lorac: Maybe I should get pregnant! Actually Im feeling quite confident about this no drinking thing! I might try that guitaring in cleveland thing tho!! that sounds win!

I know I know, usually Im joking around and being funny, and I normally even add a nice light "until the next time" after it. But I have officially decided, for at least a year, until next march 6th 2011, I am not drinking anymore. I apparently cannot grow up enough to moderate my intake of alcohol. Period. And thanks to a very high tolerance, my too much becomes borderline alcohol poisoning and its just not fucking worth it anymore. So Im done, for a year, as penance or whatever for apparently not being mature enough to limit my intake when I do drink, even as rare as it is. I know most of you are like "pfft whatever, we'll see" and we will, but be careful how you bet..I rarely let myself down. But hey, this leaves me wide open to DD!

So my jeep is done . Turns out it was *mechanical stuff here* with the engine, requiring a new one, at the prime price of 5400 dollars. Or a used one if they can find one for 3000. That pretty much totals the jeep and leaves me shit outta luck. My dad and I are gonna try to find maybe someone who wants the body or something and im gonna take that, plus bre whose being nice enough to help with income tax and try to find a cavalier or something for a grand or two. Still not letting it ruin my pretty spectacular mood Ive been in tho.

I am so ready for spring break! OMG so much. I wanna go on a small roadtrip, but im not sure where/what/who ..anything really. Just been awhile since I went anywhere. Cant really afford it, dont have my own vehicle now, and nowhere to go, so Im just talking shit I guess.

Theres a ton more I have to talk about but ugh..Im gonna return to my bed. I have a killer migraine.

But lets procrastinate a bit more shall we . Seems like all I ever really have to talk about is school. Ill just ignore that for this post x_x. Pretty dull week for the most part, lots of music tho, thats a nice change, Ill be paying the penance for it tonight with 12 straight hours of homework tho. Spent quite a bit of time with Morgan this week, that was fun, we didnt do much of anything exciting tho to tell about. Same with Ems. Went out with Ryan,Dana, and Julie, saw Cop Out which I found hilarious, even with the ever so annoying Tracy Morgan. Then we played a looot of World Tour, followed by a 3am chicken run x_x, good times tho . Tonight shall be a loooot of homework. ugh..

So, my new project, which I shall title Project #4,323,123 is under way. Im actually starting to think I might be able to sing it. I saw an interview where Corey Taylor talked about how much he hates his voice, and I know Heafy hates his...So Im thinking..if those two guys cant stand their own voice, maybe there is just no way Im suppose to stand mine? I dunno, I still gotta work on my mumbling. We'll seeee I suppose.

Nonpoint has been pretty much ruling my week musically, which Ive found enlightening. Ive spent such a great deal kinda wrapped up in Emily and I and positivity and happiness that Ive been neglecting my love of angrier music for other types more often. Id like to throw out some dedications from Nonpoint, not that these ppl read my blog for a total lack of interest in things I do, but Im gonna nonetheless and share some great Nonpoint songs with those of you who doo. Ironically, these are all from the Recoil album, but my favorite by far is development..weird, didnt notice till i posted them.

Dear Dad:

Dear Breanne:

Dear anyone in the world who has ever doubted me, or will ever make the mistake of doubting me:
The main chorus for your translated understanding:
I don't even know you, Why are you staring?
Why are you fronting face to face?
I don't even know you, Why are you staring?
I'm gonna show you head on
RAGE
What do you want? Who are you? I am rage

Pretty good. Cant complain. Actually I cant really complain at all right now, Quite a step up from a few weeks ago x_x, I have monthly bi-polar disorder or something. Basically, took my moms advice, quit worrying so damn much!

I feel pretty on top of the world again, I mean shit still sucks, but I feel like im maintaining and getting shit done. Morgans pretty much the most awesome kickass sister/bestfriend I think anyone could have so its hard to get too down about anything. And Julie is a kickass friend and makes me smile always. Emily is perfect and ...lets just go with perfect again. and everyone else kinda just comes along at the right time with a random convo or something. Mom is always encouraging! Good support!

So, Friday I had the audition for Downtrod, and through all the worrying, I ended up making it. It was incredible to have these musicians whove been playing for 20 years to say they were blown away by my guitaring and maturity for being 24, and playing for 3 years, so I was on a natural high for awhile from that. Saturday had to do some family shit..ugh, whatever, family will be family...SUCK IT! then Emily came over after it was done and all was better! Sunday was uneventful. NOT! So Julie was bored, and I was bored, and my family had thrown some money at me for christmas and computer shit, so I figured we'd go get some sushi right, wrong! Jeep broke down x_x. BTW, julie, best spirited person to break down with ever! We even had to walk like a mile or so back to the house after AAA took the jeep away, never bitched or complained once! . we then got sushi (in her car) and then morgs and I hung out, ate too much, and that was the weekend.

I turned down the guitar position for Downtrod today. I feel I cant do the committment they want with school. So, I respectfully declined *sigh* but said i wanted to remain involved and if they didnt find someone by May Id most certainly be interested again. so we'll see. I just have some things Id rather do with my bit of spare time right now. I wanna finish my "Waves of a Natural C" CD, and I have some more ideas for it writing some poetry stuff to go with the music. Id also like to do something with Ryan, altho I have no idea what at this point..but something. Soo, hopefully that doesnt bite me in the ass and something else comes up down the road..Morgans right tho, there will always be another band!

Altho technically..I skipped thursday, was off friday and monday, so i guess im shooting for a 6 day weekend

This was a pretty damn good weekend if i do stay so myself. Friday/Saturday I got so much homework done it was unreal, except for in C++ I am now ahead in all my classes. That was great. Saturday night finally felt pretty inspired to start writing again, first time in quite a few months besides writing solos to matts stuff. Well it was actually Sunday morning. and the whole song pretty much came out in one sitting. Vday was pretty perfect. Didnt doo much, Watched some movies, Tore up on donkey kong country after going through quite a few old video games. I got beat at aerofighters air assult!  then I put in Mortal Kombat to feel better about myself . Then we landed on Donkey Kong for about 4 or 5 hours. It was fun. Had some lasagna, yumm...I was then convinced to watch the Notebook. I liked it tho, but mainly cuz I didnt find it that depressing. After a great night, and great morning I wrote the ending and solo to muh song and have pretty much done nothing but play guitar most the day.

This snow is crazy, I dont mind too much cuz I have a jeep, but its crazy.

Im accrediting quite a bit of inspiration to start writing again to a jam night I attended at the Iris Thursday night. It was amazing, the musicians were amazing, the fact anyone can afford to drink there was amazing with 3.50 beers and 6.50 shots..overall..amazing. Im hoping to attend most thursdays. Not play tho, they are way too advanced for me but it was inspiring to watch them jam. and free to get in, so thats a bonus. Morgan and I are attending Thursday so I cant wait to see all these guys again. Good things.

I dont feel like uploading the new song, but if anyone wants to hear it, let me know and ill send it too ya

How was everyone elses weekend/Vday?