I dunno what tho, but since this is my blogging playground i suppose ill come here...school is going good again I think, for this week. I feel like its a struggle to keep up. Music has been so fail, i have no time for it and it really sucks. I feel like the things im trying to learn on both my electric and acoustic guitars is too far beyond my current skill level, and i keep failing more and more at them and its keeping me pretty down. Ive felt horribly insecure about Matt's and mine's music lately. Its in a genre that just..isnt popular i guess, i mean we dont have screaming and dont want it...but its not catchy four chord progressions...and the 99 perc...lets say everyone but morgan doesnt like it nor the genre in general. I heavily underestimated how much that would mean to me..and i think morgan just does cuz shes obligated half the time and biased the other. Maybe Im just meant to hide behind doing covers of everything..at least that criticism i can blame on other things, its not personal..

MY WHOLE OWN FUCKING BLOG AND I CAN NEVER SAY ANYTHING IM FEELINGS..CHRIST..

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Im paralyzed, stubborn, and censored. constantly self destructing. I am my own cancer..strong willed shadowed by a facade of decadent disguise. Im not selfish, not really. I gave everything for us, I put up a fight, lived a total lie, In the end..its sure to be my ultimate demise. Friends turned foes, hated and demised, Ill never show you that pain in my eyes. I have no regrets, Ill never forget why it was worth it, I wont be upset. but i cant fight alone, im out of battles to win. my hearts slowly turning to stone..will you still postpone the inevitable when the balls in ur court? when ur down to the last resort will I be worth it to you? I wish I knew, I wish I could see our future, Emily and Frankie as some permanent sculpture, something that was more than pure, something concrete...not a fairytale hidden buried and descrete. I wish I knew youd endure, with proof more than words full of demure. I want more, Im through playing pretend...Im tired of us withering into faded shadows on neverending days full of darkness, we are barely visible to each other, just so the world cant see us, I want more than a faded outline, something more defined, something I can openly call mine.....But I cant have what I want, i guess not yet. youll remain a silhouette of my hearts own abet. I knew how this unfolded..Hell, i practically wrote it, falling isnt easy i suppose, specially when its more than skinned knees and elbows. When your hearts the one taking the blows it really starts to show. bland ramblings start to become prose, and everyone starts to know...I dont know what my point really is, I just needed to write, not a paragraph of regret or contrite, just an expression of my life, that has become over expressed and trite. I guess Ill wrap this up..I have to call and tell you goodnight.

School is kicking my ass, but its all good, I think im getting caught up finally
Ive decided, after this semester, Taking a year off to pay some bills, catch up, and then start back to school part time. Maybe even explore some other city options Dunno yet.
Modern Warfare 2 has been a great lil distraction and something new.
I cant seem to get the hang of blogging this year x_x.
Fiddlesticks is my new favorite, very cheap, ( if you dont drink) place to hang out, 1 dollar per hour per person during the day. *love*.
Morgan and I are going ice skating tomorrow I think, wish me luuuck!
I made Julie try sushi...and she liked it!!
Tomorrow is laundry day *barf*
Damnit..tonight is trash night..
Corey Smith is the bomb!!
Have I mentioned our bassist has velcro shoes? 
I dont think hes our bassist anymore actually..
Are we even a we anymore? Its hard telling..Do I care? meh..a lil.
Im really tired.
I need to take more pictures.
I need to start making music again GRR @ school!
I basically just did a months worth of twittering in like, 3 minutes...
Speaking of twitter, Julie admitted it was pointless, and I was right.
Speaking of Julie, I believe she has something to say, so Ill let her take the podium.
SO LISTEN UP!!! (cuz I need guest speakers this place is soo dead lately x_x.)

Hello people! Frankie is being oh so kind to allow me to use his blog to write about my revelations and whatnot. Let’s get started then;

So, I sort of made a slight change to my future. Remember how I wanted to go to the University of Akron and major in Communications and minor in Business? Well, that’s all different. I want to go to Bowling Green State University and major in Neuroscience and minor in Film. I know it’s a huge change and it will be really difficult, but I want to do this. Maybe even become a doctor of some sort someday. I think that’d be neat. I still want to make movies, but I want to do something more beneficial. Plus, Neuroscience is really interesting. The bad thing is though that I haven’t been doing so well in the support department. (Other than of course, Mr. Franks Devine and Dear Joseph. They think I'll do amazing and I really appreciate it.) Apparently I’m not smart enough. I mean, I’m not the biggest science geek out there, but I think if I tried, I can do it. Oh well I guess. I’m just gonna have to do it and show them how wrong they are.

Im having a hell of a time getting into the swing of things so far this semester, I mean its only week 2, but damn I havent got anything done or organized or anything. I lose track of time b4 I even realize it and its 3 days later. Hopefully that changes soon. I cant even get into the swing of blogging x_x.

Happy late *on here* Birthday to mom! She turned 27 Saturday 

Starting my Bi-Annual diet today! I guess Ive decided, even if something (usually sleep) fucks it all up and whatnot, it keeps me level, where Im at and doesnt let me get any bigger I suppose.  Actually, the last two times its actually been going to Texas now that I think about it. I bought everything on my diet meal thing for the next 2-3 weeks for 100 dollars. I was soo shocked cuz I was getting sooo much. and a lot of it was spices and shit I didnt have from moving or I had lost or whatnot. Eating my last pizza as we speak to *sad face* and I think all my old food thats no longer on my diet Ill just give to my equally poor friend Morgan See no bad food, eat no bad food! (NO PIZZA ROLLS JULIE AMANDA!!!!) Ive also been kicking ass in the no eating out department (minus a week in texas...good god, thats all we did haha) and also going to applebees with Jen and Morgan, but I needed to go out!! What a fun night .

Went to Ryan and Danas, for the 2nd time in history lol, tonight for dinner. I must admit that was nice and grand. And then Ryan and Dana cheated at Office Clue, but its kewl, cuz Im inviting them down for dinner! ...and were playing Halo

Laptop screen, 79 bucks on ebay! new! woo, 230 less than Dells. And while I cant afford it atm, It puts it within saving reach in the future. Also gonna just buy a washer and dryer, b4 I get mugged or raped at the laundromat. Shouldnt affect me in the long run, Ive cut my weekly .."allowance?" from 250 down to 50 to keep living here accordingly. So, Im saving around 700 a month (I hope).

Matt and I got around 7 songs recorded and done, Im not really uploading them anywhere for now cuz Im lazy and its too much work. But if anyone would like to hear them or some of them let me know and Ill send them.

School is going to be hard this semester ..ugh. I was hoping for it not to be, but it is. But it seems like a majority of my classes I will really love, especially Robotics engineering. Lots of work to do at home tho in all my classes, which is what scares me. I also learnt I can pursue my BS at Akron should I choose to, which would allow me to live here. Bah, Im just ready to work tho, I would love to obtain my masters degree in the end, in one of two interested fields..but Im ready to just, work, and have some money *thats Im not overdrafting from loans or grants* and mainly work. Even if its a factory job, Im ready to work, and only work, and not deal with school I guess. Hopefully I can do that and find someone to sorta pay for school? I dunno. *wishes I woulda stayed in school the first time so I wasnt making this choice at 24 years old.*

I think Im going to be waaay more broke than I anticipated this semester, still worth it to live here tho without a doubt.

Im in love with my droid btw..(shamelessly promotes video quality)
Original glorious quality: www.frankied247.com/media/Original/Droid.3gp</a>
Shitty youtube quality: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K6o68T_0mtA

I have to do some laundry and buy books today..ugh x_x ..and lots of homework