My online classes are down at the moment, so Ill take some time to finallllly blog.

Im not gonna reply to the comments from the last blog cuz I do believe Ive already talked to everyone about their comments. Soo whats been going on in my life hmm....this is why I havent blogged cuz..nothing? Lots of homework, a little bit of music, basically it. Matt and I jammed with our drummer for the first time, it was pretty much awesome like. ....then we found out hes enlisting and will be leaving. So thats awesome. I think Im going to produce Matts new stuff hes wrote, and add the drums and effects and we are just gonna leave it at that for the most part, its what he wants to do. I do have a little something other going. Joe Waller and I, plus hopefully Javon singing are gonna start a old school style punk rock band thing. That should be interested, Matt and I havent decided if hes gonna be part of that or not, but hopefully that'll get going soon enough. Hmm..what else, I think the party went fairly well Friday night. First time Ive seen anyone other than Julie or Morgan in like months upon months.

Hmm...What else. I finished my renditions of Phantom of the Opera. I started out wanting to do the overture to it, and I just simply couldnt figure it out. I dont have a firm enough understanding of organs to even figure out what they were playing. So I did the actual song Phantom of the Opera, from the 2004 movie cuz its one of my favorite songs. I originally had Phantom's and Christine's voices totally doing their own thing, but, in the end I had multiple instruments do their melody line, I think it turned out pretty good, took me almost a month and a half to write it and figure it out tho, and recording went really smooth once I bitched enough to Morgan about the drums I couldnt get out of my head and finally got them down. Theres also a second Violin/Fiddle mix, both links below

Phantom of the Opera 
Phantom of the Opera Violin Mix

Im getting caught up fast..thankfully. Got a 100 on my calc test Monday, got a few papers wrote and projects started. Its looking good, now I just gotta hope it wasnt too late. I will have plenty of time to get stuff turned in, as I ended up losing my job. I was told it was fine for me to have 2 days off during the week, and then that changed Tuesday and I was told I could either work every day or no days. and I chose none. Oh well, I have to pass. I have a few plans for December to make some money..and if I can make it to Jan I can ride my financial aid out quite awhile..So theres my plans and goals!!

Been getting caught up on some music stuff too finally. Thats good. Getting a few projects rolling. We'll see where they go tho, Im pretty "eh, whatevs" about them currently. Ive well learnt Im the only person I can heavily rely on in the music department..If anything becomes of anything Ill start posting vids and whatnot.

Saw The Box with Bre yesterday...crazy movie. Great movie, right till the ending, and then it was a fail movie sadly. Also finally had quaker steak and lube for the first time eva. It was good, a lil pricey we thought for what we got. But good for people who arent so broke . Hung out with Julie for a bit today, we were gonna go see Where the Wild Things are...buuuut, someones bank was closed cuz it was Vets Day. So I made her watch Away We Go, I felt it was important lol. Cept the living room was like a billion degrees...Im already done with this wood burner for the season..its 85 degrees in this house...bah! She liked it tho, and I of course enjoyed rewatching it, since then, I have tore up in the homework department, and got Debs computer fixed, and feel quite accomplished .

There was a huge detour thanks to Dana's Blog, that lasted about 90 minutes, ...or every video on a certain Youtube channel, I smiled a lot, and just pretty much was a good day for those videos

By far My favorite

Sooo, hows everyone else doing in life?? whats everyone plans for Thanksgiving? Hows the new job going Ryan? Did you hear any news from UK on ur dream job Joe?

Jamming at Matts today, then hopefully seeing the box with bre...lots of school work has gotten done over the last 40, and I made some changes at work..prolly lost me my job in the long run, but I have to save my school first. Ill improv December. Also FINALLLLY got to talk to Sarah today. It had been forever and I was missing talking to her like crazy! So that was great to finally have some time for that. All and all, Im feeling much better about this week...so we'll see how that keeps going .

Im so lost...

All my grades refreshed for this 1/4 of the semester...Im now failing 2 classes, and D's in the rest..This all happened in a month.  I wish I wouldnt have taken so many credit hours...It was such a great plan when my aid was gonna stretch and Bre and I were together..Now with work..Im just overwhelmed, I cant reduce my hours..even if put in my two weeks...thatd give me a week to finish and catch up, and by then..i just wont be able too. I cant drop any classes or I lose my aid next semester, and I also have to pay back part of my grant money. Debs a whore...firehouse really wants me but is waiting to see how the cook they just hired is working out first *sigh*

And Im doing all this for what? To get a degree and keep working a dead end job like all my friends that are graduated...

Ive been talking to a marine reserves recruiter. I feel like its quitting tho...I feel like Im the person when I was 17 who couldnt figure out a direction or plan, and chose that I would just go in to services instead. I feel like I got so close and just, now my life is a shithole of a mess and wreck and it cant be fixed..Im not sure what my other options are. I put my amp and guitar on craigslist..and lowered the price of my old amp and both drum sets that were already on there. also put my xbox and tv on there. So I guess now I just hope they sell :-\. If not by half way through December or so, Guitar center can give me cash for both the amp and my guitar...and ill just have to take them up there and hopefully that can get me to next semester and I can try all over again or just take a semester off I guess. I dunno...*sigh*

I guess if you dont have a trust fund you need to go to a university that has housing ..or maybe not finance everything you own with a fiance till you both graduate...I feel like I have learnt more lessons this year than ever b4...

I aaaaaam gonna rant!

I hate my political science class...It was fun in the beginning..theres 30 of us, 28 are democrats, 2 of us are republicans..the other rep isnt registered to vote and is a republican cuz her rents are...theres my debating teams, I still win normally..but theres two ppl in this class that are just fucking stupid..stupid dumb ignorant fucking idiots..    ...dumb dumb dumb. I generally dont argue something unless I have a plethora of information, and they dont accept it, most the class has accepted Im open minded, its hard to say Im not when I wanted to vote for Hillary, and I think Obama is a great president..but these two...grr...are just always stupid, old dumb black lady, and 70's style pedo mustache bearing guy..even has the creeper glasses and hair due to go with it..fuckhead, needs to climb out his astro van, put down his bag of candy for the kids at the playground and grow a goatee if ur gonna rock facial hair, its the 21st century, you rock a goatee with unshaved beard due to laziness...no staches..

Anyways..Heres my two concerns, and issues of the day...they've been brought up to me like a million times from the most random ppl the last 24 hours, some of you might not agree with me, but hey, its my opinion and my blog and I dont care.

Its not my blog if I dont copy/paste my rants from some of my political forums!!!

Issue number 1. The shootings at Fort Hood. Now bear in mind, I try to see both sides of everything unbiasedly, regardless of my beliefs, I consider this to be my best arguing trait. I have gotten a million comments (since Im from texas) about this crazy psycho blah blah..most these from old ppl at the meat market (yess they are all old so they all retained im from texas somehow? ..i dunno how, and they all came in just to talk about crazy guy) ...I have two responses to the barrage of hur hur texas people are crazy hur hur, A) youre a fucking idiot, he wasnt from texas. B ) I dont think he was crazy..thats just me. This is where im a terrorist according to my class. I mean, Im not condoning shooting a bunch of people for any reason. But this is a guy, who grew up in American, born in America, and simply was Muslim. His cousin made it sound like the whole time he was on base people tortured him cuz of his faith, and I find this not hard to believe at all. I can only imagine the shit he would take anywhere else, let alone from a base full of rednecked hillbilly's mindset on killing anything non-white/christian/american/so on. He also pleaded many times to not be deployed to the two places they wanted to deploy him. I imagine you can only take so much shit for your religion b4 you just have to snap and do something about it. The army trains you to channel everything you have into soul-less aggression and solve life with violence and thats what he did. I think maybe the bigger lesson should be something along the lines of, maybe everyone should not condemn everything you dont understand and maybe accept people a little more and when they snap..they wont shoot you...he shot people on the base..he wasnt crazy, he didnt go to walmart off base and shoot innocent people, and then kill himself. Rather than looking at the army now, and saying maybe the army should have listened to his pleas not to be deployed cuz of his religious ties to the region, and all the people on base his cousin said constantly hounded him and called him towel head and said they should kill him, whats our focus? Muslims in the army, and now, according the CNN and Foxnews..Muslims in America period. This is sooo fucking ignorant. Why not let Jews in the army? or any other religion for that matter? what about atheists? People dont understand the Muslim culture, bcuz some Muslims blow themselves up for their lil diety, so now Muslims in general are crazy towel heads who are gonna blow themselves up?? To this I say lets kick christians out of the army!! and out of america!!! Christians are crazy! They hate fags, and jews, and niggers..they hate the institution of the army in general, they will picket soldiers funerals, they will petition anything differing from their way of thinking, any kind of change, radical or simple, they wont understand it and they will condemn it to hell, openly any chance they get, they will even praise the burning of other Christians who dont feel as strongly as them....Care to say Im wrong? Google Westboro Baptist Church. Doesnt feel so fair to be lumped in with a couple of crazy people who are extremist. *Im aware I lumped Christians and Baptist together, But everyone Lumped Islamic religions and Muslim Religions together, it seemed fair enough to me.

All Im saying, Everytime one of these shootings happens, we blame everything on the shooter's side, I think maybe the world needs too look at the correlation between constant harassment, being out casted, etc...and these people finally snapping. I get some people are born crazy, and these crazy people tend to do something rash, stupid, impulsive, they kill 2 people and themselves. thats crazy, I think the world sometimes drives people to the "crazy" side...and people needs to quit challenging what they cant accept and embrace it, and get to know it. America is full of people who cant accept change they dont understand, and lots of Americans *like the people in my class, and many people I know* think they are open minded bcuz they believe in democratic change. Thats not open minded, thats being liberal, and wanting change. being open minded is being a democrat, and accepting republican views. Even tho you dont believe in God, or their way of thinking. or being republican and accepting Obama is a good president even if he does nothing for you. Maybe being a christian and accepting Muslims have the same beliefs as you, only worship their deity in a different way, and have some crazy people. Open minded is not being able to accept changes in the way things are that you want to happen...its being able to accept things you dont believe in, and accepting your no more right or wrong than the next person.

Just a thought...

Next Raaaaant. Gay Marriage, and Maine.

Also from old people..also my class.

Everyone keeps getting mad at the voters of these states, and its bullshit. Want someone to get mad at? Get mad at the state legislatures. many people dont understand why things keep getting overturned, and blame it on the people and the voters. The people are not passing the gay marriage laws. State legislature is, without voters or any type of approval or notice. This in turns of course pisses off voters, who never even got a chance to say nething about it, these people get pissed off, and they throw together a petition, usually in an odd voting year, and get the overturning of the bill on the ballot...and then only fucking old people show up...Obamas "younger" voting crowd..doesnt vote in odd year elections..not even 2 year elections, read any demographic, its oooold people, and its 30+, all who are christians cuz they grew up that way. Its no wonder these get rejected. States should put the damn thing on the ballot in the first place..during a main election year, let the younger crowd get out to vote on it first! not during an odd year and only as "overturn the gay marriage" that only allows people against it to vote! Put it on the ballot in the first place, so then maybe you can get some "vote for gay marriage" maybe then you'll get more supporters on the ballot. I dont know why this doesnt make sense to people. I dunno if maybe people dont know state legislators pass the original bill? and not voters? I dunno...I think the gay community needs to contact their representatives, maybe get a petition to get gay marriage on the ballots first, b4 legislators or courts pass it without voter support, and opposers get first dibs on a non year election to have it overturned...Same thing with the huge prop 8 in CA. People act like voters vote for it, and everyone is ready for change, and then just re-vote it down. CA's Supreme Court voted for it, 4-3. 4 people in CA voted for it...not CA. and it wasnt for gay marriage, it was rather that statutes that treat people differently cuz of their sexual orientation would be in trouble basically, this included the institute of marriage. Plain and Simple, CA never voted to approve gay marriage. A court did, and a petition that raised 46 million dollars overturned it. MA's supreme court case was well known in a little state, voters didnt feel blindsided by the decision, and when people barely got enough for a ballot initiative down the road, Just as much money and campaigning went into KEEPING same sex marriage, rather than overturning a proposition. therefore, until 2012, MA has to allow same-sex marriage b4 it can even be voted on again. This is enough time for people to realize, gays arent going to destroy the world....pick your battles I guess is my point. This was what proposition 8 overturned http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/In_re_Marriage_Cases ..it wasnt gay marriage per say. Every state legislature that votes to amend their state constitution to allow gay marriage is going to be followed directly by a ballot initiative to overturn that amendment..ALLL of them. Supporters of gay marriage need to focus on how to keep the legislature, its obvious courts who are known for being unbiased, are supporting these cases..people arent..ur jobs not done yet, every supreme court case isnt a victory, its simply a step in the right direction, I personally feel a great direction, and a great start, but thats all it is..is a start. I feel like the gay community doesnt wanna fight hard enough I guess, like everything is a crushing last blow, blacks had to fight for their rights for 200 years, now theres a half black president...persistence seems to promote acceptance..make that into a bumper sticker while ur at it..

..but as the world has told me today a few times, I'm a terrorist, I hate Christians, support shootings, and hate gays.

All because I dont blame the obvious things people have chosen to blame problems on...Its no wonder this world is going to shit..

If you read all that, props, ur smarter now..I promise