Pretty good. Cant complain. Actually I cant really complain at all right now, Quite a step up from a few weeks ago x_x, I have monthly bi-polar disorder or something. Basically, took my moms advice, quit worrying so damn much!

I feel pretty on top of the world again, I mean shit still sucks, but I feel like im maintaining and getting shit done. Morgans pretty much the most awesome kickass sister/bestfriend I think anyone could have so its hard to get too down about anything. And Julie is a kickass friend and makes me smile always. Emily is perfect and ...lets just go with perfect again. and everyone else kinda just comes along at the right time with a random convo or something. Mom is always encouraging! Good support!

So, Friday I had the audition for Downtrod, and through all the worrying, I ended up making it. It was incredible to have these musicians whove been playing for 20 years to say they were blown away by my guitaring and maturity for being 24, and playing for 3 years, so I was on a natural high for awhile from that. Saturday had to do some family shit..ugh, whatever, family will be family...SUCK IT! then Emily came over after it was done and all was better! Sunday was uneventful. NOT! So Julie was bored, and I was bored, and my family had thrown some money at me for christmas and computer shit, so I figured we'd go get some sushi right, wrong! Jeep broke down x_x. BTW, julie, best spirited person to break down with ever! We even had to walk like a mile or so back to the house after AAA took the jeep away, never bitched or complained once! . we then got sushi (in her car) and then morgs and I hung out, ate too much, and that was the weekend.

I turned down the guitar position for Downtrod today. I feel I cant do the committment they want with school. So, I respectfully declined *sigh* but said i wanted to remain involved and if they didnt find someone by May Id most certainly be interested again. so we'll see. I just have some things Id rather do with my bit of spare time right now. I wanna finish my "Waves of a Natural C" CD, and I have some more ideas for it writing some poetry stuff to go with the music. Id also like to do something with Ryan, altho I have no idea what at this point..but something. Soo, hopefully that doesnt bite me in the ass and something else comes up down the road..Morgans right tho, there will always be another band!