My mom and Julie reallly reallly want me to blog, and post something, and this is a long time coming I think, but here is where I stand...

I kinda created this site during a pretty rough time for three reasons, to get my feelings out, to be comical, and to share my music.

My music and I have kinda become not so sharetastical. I finally know what I do and dont wanna do with my music,and this is in the dont category. As far as writing goes, its all for Julie these days, and she gets it, so I dont feel the need to really post it.

My comical stuff, Facebook works just as well.

Wrapping up my "life" threads: Thats a tricky one, but Ive been content, theres not much to say really other than to finalize the issues Ive always had on here. Julie has become my world, and I have become hers...Not too much exists outside of that world. And were best friends, which means, on my worst days Ive been experiencing something with a best friend and a lover to talk to, and not only does she get every single piece of me, I then have all my friends finally lined out the way I want to share select stuff with. There is just simply not much to write about but happiness and thats easier to share with her than blog about basically. All the friends we now surround ourselves with love and respect our relationship, it took my family mere minutes to be around us at graduation/dinner to see they were wrong, and fuck everyone else basically. I needed this a lot to deal with anger/frustration in the way people saw us but now it just doesnt matter what they say. We know shes going to change, everyone changes, Ill change..but ya know what, we both could not pick a better other person to grow and change with. We know I was gonna have to leave for awhile, we've gotten stronger, and even better at being best friends and talking, everyone was so worried about if we'd make it cuz its so hard...Its sad, and depressing being away from each other, and missing each others kiss so bad, but its not hard. We talk every second of every moment we have outside of sleep, we have countdowns, emails, letters..This has not put a single strain on our relationship we couldnt handle with absolutely no problem. And her family..yess..her family-that sux, no lie. Ive never been truly hated like that..but Ill fight, I have fought, and I will continue to fight and so will she. Ive learnt, they dont have to like me, and they can hate me..but Ill be there for my girlfriend the way she was for me and mine if thats what she wants..and it is. Those were my issues, Julie and have solved them.

I dunno, I still get down sometimes..but overall Im just beyond happy with my life. And I can see in Julie's eyes Im as much her world as she is mine and thats all that matters to me...to us. And like I said, everyone is right, she will change, so will I. But we will change together,and we will grow together, Ive never been so confident of that in my life. My family is confident of that, I have "family" that is confident of that, and we have Morgan and TC and others... everyone that spends decent time with us can see and tell that and Im so grateful for everything and everyone of them. And even the people who do have doubts or reservations we choose to associate ourselves with respect and support our relationship. Im especially grateful for Burke, Dana, and Ryan who even tho have understandable reasons/concerns/doubts have been awesome in supporting Julie and I, and our relationship so far. I admire and love all three of them so much for feeling the way they do and still being the friends they are for Julie and I and I dont think I could ever say how much that means to me. Everyone else that didnt fit into that category, and theres a looot, Julie and I have distanced ourselves from or completely gotten rid of all together.

All in all, my purposes for this blog, and things I often spoke/bitched/ranted about have all come to a conclusion, a very happy and blissful one. Im very grateful for what it got me through, and everyone who read it. Itll still be around cuz I use the hosting for a barage of other things, but this except for maybe an occasional poem or two shall be my farewell to the blog.

Goodbye, and Goodnight